Here goes nothing...

..so I blogged about my weight loss journey and it really helped me succeed at losing the weight and keeping it off for the past year. I have a blog that I attempt to keep up to date for out of town friends and family. But what about me?!?! I'm a stay-at-home mom and most days, I suck at it. I decided to start a blog for myself... share my joys, vent my frustrations, voice my fears, get my thoughts out there... and maybe share with my girls one day (maybe). Here's a little about me... I've got 2 daughters- "Sweet P" will be 3 next week and "Bug" will be 5 next month- who are as smart as they come (not sure how!) but they are mini-me's... they love to push the limits (and my buttons). I've been married for 8.5 years but I still haven't gotten this wife thing figured out (still holding out hope!). I'm not really sure how I'm supposed to run this house and it's pretty clear that I'm not doing the best job at it, but nobody seems to mind as much as I do. I have a tendency to focus on the insignificant; I can't just let the little things that don't go right roll off my back; I feel if I stood in the middle of the street and screamed, nobody would notice (unless my youngest was pooping at the time and needed her butt wiped!); I would fight to my death to protect my girls and husband; oh & I love Jesus... a lot- and spend 99% of my time asking God to forgive me once more, or to pick me up, or just carry me this time, or thanking Him for loving me even though I really don't deserve it.